When we feel safe we feel at ease to express; in our expression we find our wishes manifest in material existence; without something to lean on such as a belief, a someone or a something, we are anything but eased.
Have you heard of something called “kundalini”? They say it’s our creative force laying latent and dormant and once it’s on fire, it literally sets you free by tearing down the wall of differences you have created between the original version of you and the current perception of you. The vapour given off through this fire, is like steam that is felt throughout energy meridians in and around the body that which you are aware of and not. The whole idea of this sort of fire that feels like 10,000 orgasms worth of voltage, is to bring you into a state of receptivity and thereby your creativity is triggered to manifest your desired creation through an awareness of the totality of Self.
Wow! Just imagine.
Okay, so when you let kundalini just do what it’s doing, chances are you will feel pretty relaxed supported and enlightened absorbed in highly altered states of consciousness and functioning at the material physical level of the world.
BUT, buyer beware! The caveat.
Most of us have bodies that contain a myriad of blocks that serve to put us in a “fear” mode that takes us away from relaxation. When we are not wholly relaxed then we cannot receive our infinity through our antennae. Something is clogged. Imagine the drain pipes that need to be flushed out. What happens when you have an active kundalini and with that have a lot of body pains and an awareness that blows your fuses so much so that you cannot hide from it. Your level of awareness becomes so acute you can catch yourself out on everything. There is no hiding and certainly no break for as long as you are not in tune with that totality of you, there will be nudges and painful ones too. What is the problem then?
Our resistance to the energy of relaxation keeps us in the stronghold of who we think we are and how we think our life must be. The vapour like an analgesic moves around and will feel painful to us when our body resists the euphoria and insists on being locked in a state of hyper vigilance. Even our resistance to authority is not because we are so relaxed and free to be but another flip manifestation of I am too scared to trust, so I cannot relax.
The only way to become receptive to your creative force is to feel safe enough to relax. You will feel safe when you feel an active part of a community, a family, are surrounded with loved ones, and have a open space to express your levity.
Whether we are initiated into spiritual life (which I call just life because to single it out as a spiritual one is a misnomer), or follow a set of teachings, hold on to belief systems, have an altar of dolls and crystals, or anything that brings you a haven, you will feel a sense of “my back is covered”.
Okay, so far it all sounds great BUT what you choose to lean on will mirror your very first experience of support – your primary caregivers, parents. Yep. The way you lean on let’s say a spiritual guide or a teaching, will reflect your relationship dynamics with your parents. It will also carry with it a repetition of anything that might have caused yourself to fragment so that you might get a chance of a do over and make it all right again.
So many ask this question :
“Why do things suddenly fall apart when I choose the path of righteousness and devotion?”
And the reason is that your journey into your complete state of relaxation and rest has begun. With that anything that stands in between your relaxation and you, will need to be worked through. It could be your whole attitude to relaxation for example; it could be how you manage relationships ; or how you express feelings. There are billions of possibilities of all that stands in the way of total receptivity borne of a purely relaxed state of you in rest.
All parts of you are recalled into a state of homeostasis that serves to bring you back into that state of relaxation.
When you give a toddler the space and understanding to be, they are likely to fully express than to withhold any of it out of fear of being abandoned. They don’t want to be abandoned by their first gurus and neither do we when we find a teaching or a way or a guru type that we believe in and so we will buy into that belief system. So will the toddler buy into the life style life values and life standards that we set as parents.
As long as this belief is greeted with an openness of the the guru or parent to whatever we express as us, we continue to feel safe and in that safety is borne our other sense of self wherein we can perceive other realms than just this physical reality. The stillness has arrived because we don’t feel like we need to defend ourselves and fight our corner all the time.
Problems ensue in belief when a child’s first life at home was not secure. The child will expect to be treated better than at home if things were not healthy, but this “better” is likely to be “narcissistic” or like a toddler tantrum. Something like if you don’t do it the way I want you to then you can’t be my guru and so you reject them and leave. Perhaps you were treated the same way by your parents. Or you can become the obedient servant and slave to the guru or god not because you want to but because you know this was the knob way of receiving approval and also a sort of preemptive action of any disapproval since you never knew when to expect a blow as a child. So you went out of your way to please your mama or papa out of fear. And similarly your attachment to a guru figure or a belief resounds similar survival tendencies.
Can you see and feel how far reaching the consequences of your parenting are for your child? Some of us will be on auto pilot and just get on with parenting as we were parented. When we get upset we will rarely question our timeline. Instead we look to our child as being the reason.
Look back at your timelines and see if you can find patterns. Whoever you think you are right now, can you see any resemblance to you the toddler? Who do you lean on? It doesn’t have to be a person. Does this mirror your relationship with your parents as a child? Or what you wish you could be more of.
Deconstruction of our conditioned perceived sense of self takes us into the possibilities of us. A clean slate. In that state, you can truly say you are now at rest relaxed and receptive. You are a channel for pure divine wisdom; you can perceive the whole of you feeling supported safe and secure.
Blessings.