– the world doesn’t change, nor do your life circumstances, but what we can say changes is our perspective.
The journey back to source must happen but to say there is light at the end of that road let alone that there is an end, is a “nom de plume”. Simply makes no sense. So, why some people stand on one leg or go off meditating in a cave for several years when all that is needed is a journey to a self that is always available, is merely an exercise aimed to dissolve the mind and its associations through deliberate trauma or ahem discomfort shall we say, which you can do right from your couch. Yep.
Look around. How many people can you see as any worse or better than you for not having a spiritual awakening, or practice? Life still happens whether we are aware or not. Whether we have a pattern or not, life carries on. How do you explain people who haven’t prayed meditated or gone through half the hell you might have faced, who still continue living their lives happily with the same partner and have children blah blah? Someone else manifested their abundance without a tuning into that or knowing any affirmations or mindsets. They just did it. Totally unawares. And maybe others with awareness but a lighthearted one at that since to get rigid with it, produces mayhem chaos and total imprisonment of our goals visions and growth potential.
Your food choices might have changed; you might see life differently but really the big picture remains the same. Nothing changes except your own lens. You might have total clarity and awareness now of your own crap but life still goes on. If on your journey you think aha it’s because of so and so that you got this far and then steadfastly hold on to so and so way past the sell by date, you will ROT. Yes. One big smelly rotten potato. Only you won’t smell it but the rest of us will. You will know something is off but you will be quick to judge your wife as the one who let one out! She on the other hand has done her work and is no longer attached to a vehicle of growth but has herself realised she is the vehicle and can grow on her own. She can pick other tools along the way but also leave them once their work is done. But you continue to rot. Yep.
How can you be awake spiritually but asleep to your brain, the neuroscience of you, your physical body and those you might be trampling upon all in the name of higher spirituality? What’s that anyway? Again, a nom de guerre. You are only ever truly awake when you can see your totality and then whether you can witness an infinity that you might be able to experience is a bonus. Let’s take baby steps by fully becoming cognisant with our self.
There is nothing that is mastery if it is not of the self. Self mastery makes you the master of you, and you then beget the courage to master your stance in relation to the others and finally your self mastery gives you an opportunity to live life first hand.
One might say it doesn’t matter really if one is aware of the entirety of self or not because life is in constant flux and motion. It doesn’t stop to wait until you have realised your self. It keeps moving. Whether aware awake or not, you will still get a flavour of your totality as a partial reflection or shall we say the mere face of the inner depth which mirrors that inner sanctum. The difference of the level of self mastery will reflect in the depth impact and permanence of what stays with you as your essence. Imagine two people one of whom pledges an awakened state of self, and the other a normal bloke carrying on his life without a care for anything metaphysical or spiritual. He is just living. And the pledged one, is constantly bombarded with what is or not real authentic divine spiritual so on and so forth almost detached to what’s going on in the present real actual material world. They are both none the better because where one is the other one will be too. We are after all constantly evolving.
We were dinosaurs; now we are humans tomorrow we might be crystals. The cycle continues as does the flux and flow of consciousness through its myriads of physical manifestations.
So does it that matter whether one is conscious aware thoughtful or not? Not really. We are all awake asleep dreaming and in between these states. We can be any one of them. It doesn’t matter.
What has made it matter when all of the hullabaloo about spirituality or material success marital life love sex and all, is our ego of separation. We want to be special, we want the separation of self and that is why we tend to focus on “oh I am awake or aware, and so and so is not so I cannot hold their company”. We want to fixate on one aspect of us because it means not living in our equality.
Nobody really wants to believe we are all equals right? What would happen to all the differences we have created? They would all seem so petty and borne of the need to be special and separate, the club of the exclusives. What utter nonsense it all is!! So much commotion for nothing.
Of course it’s natural for us to form clusters based on our values thoughts and ideologies but to block entrants from other clusters is simply too darn asleep right? Well, no. Not asleep but just infantile. Very infantile.
It has the trimmings of the child forsaken by its caregivers too early; the infant weaned off mamas breast against its wishes; the baby who has to cry to sleep; the little bubba who had to learn to self soothe. We moved to a generation of “let’s not encourage a sleep association!”. How many adults do you know that sleep with a dummy in their mouths? Or a favourite blanket? But, you might find an insecure anxious adult insisting on being held the whole night or even make rules such as nobody else can come to bed be that the children their parents or the dogs. They make rules to make them feel safe secure and “important”.
This is an adopted “narcissism” that is rampant in society today and its roots are in infancy. Most of us were brought up with the idea that if you might “spoil” your children by giving them too much importance love praise and acknowledgement. That to carry them too often would develop into a habit. I don’t see many adults who insist on being carried do you? But we do have a society rife with “I want to be special so I will attain nirvana be close to my creator and therefore make up for being abandoned emotionally by my mama and papa”; or “I am so desperate for love I will marry anyone that is willing to put up with me because mama always criticised me, demeaned me saying I was hopeless (although we know mama thought she was doing me a favour by not letting me grow out of my boots) and I believed Amal as my little brain could not understand her motives only her actions and words; or another society that wants money to no end, keep creating affirmations for abundance and more. Why? Weren’t we born whole?
Get back into your timeline. Check what’s missing. Were you picked as soon as you got upset? Or maybe left crying? What happened back them?
Take a pen and paper. Write about your infancy and childhood. Email this to me and I will send you more food for thought by nudging you but I will not show you what you need to see – that you do solo, after all you are your own curator.
It doesn’t matter whether you are a rat in the race of life or for life. Rat is rat, we are all rats. Being awareness makes as rats in the awareness rat race unless we are willing to detach from any notion of what we are being so that your fluidity and flexibility take you. As long as we get fixated in any one facet of us we are hindering real growth.
Nothing is fixed. Why are we so bent upon getting fixed? Because really we are looking to complete some parts of our story that are missing.
Time to maybe joint the world and give up your cave?